Ghaat ya Nau(ghaatko kharani)

Unsure

I've never been treated like this
like being spitted upon and kissed
upon by the same person
the ways she flips these 
personalities inside me. we clicked
the first day we met
when she hissed those...
what the fuck were those words?
i cant remember them, those verbs 
spitted out in the suburbs at that time, 
were those blessings or were those cursed words
springing back and forth
cause those vowels has crashed me down
but i can't even frown as 
the power surged from within me
from those same fucking words and
switch boards been completely manhandled and 
as i say "i hate that bitch, i wanna kill..."
the speech gets stuck 
just in those last two verbs as i realize 
i love her, wanna hug her, i wanna kiss...
No i cant ! can i? AH! those 
lips, those eyes, yeah crazy eyes...
shit snap out of it, i gotta realize
the reality of this realm, that despises every move
I made, that forced me to hide inside my blankets for years,
those thankless ghouls
but her soul somehow soothed me down and 
made me Nuts off at the same time
so I'm writing these lines
oh! wait- What the Fuck! i just ran out of Rhymes!!!!