i want to....

this is for those people who want to help but cant

i wanna do sth
but what about my parents?
they are worried
i know that
many have lost their
but i have survived
but yet i cant make them cry
and even though i try
to convince them
they wont understand
so i am trapped
in between yes and no
and i can't help but feel
helpless

i have energy to help
and heart
but the physical condition
for i am a victim too
and i'm being torn apart
from this helplessness

i am fit and fine
but scared
i have the will to go
but the courage is smeared
by the shakes
of the quakes

its a bit long but it has 3 cases